VexeD | DexeV

It's strange. Everyday, you meet people and you interact with them. But these interaction doesn't mean anything. It doesn't make you feel happier, make you feel good or make you feel that life is meaninful.

In essence, we communicate alot to people in our daily work and life but these spoken words are as cold and lifeless as these letters you see displayed on your computer screen. We converse for the sake of conversing to get things done, to make our intentions understood. Remove this need of getting things done, I'm sure no one will be talking to anyone.

I wish I can ignore all these thoughts but I can't. I feel it all the time. Conversations that leaves your soul feeling empty and dark. Luckily, I know that there are a handful of people which I can still enjoy a quiet conversation with. These are the people that speaks from the bottom of the heart and makes you feel connected to them and these are the people you want to converse with to rejuvenate your soul....

I'm tired. Tired of dealing with people with facades, tired of expectations and the need to conform to what people think it's the right thing to do....

I'm standing here, in the middle of the busy street screaming for attention. No one bothers to stop. No one wants to stop. No one feels that they should stop.

Even though the busy street is brimming with noise, all I can discern is the overwhelming sound of silence...

Lazy Weekend...

Mmmm, it's been a while since I really rested at home during the weekends and I must say, I welcome the change, as compared to my usual nip zip of going office and ecp. I guess it takes an illness to halt a busy schedule and force you to downshift to a slower pace of life.

And i'm glad for that.

I slept like I never sleep before. I rotted at home like I never did before. And I felt truely relaxed like I never did before.

I hope I can do this once every month, the doing nothing part, not the illness part (not that hard to ask for right?)

And in such a relax state of mind, I had supper (actually it's more of breakfast/lunch/dinner combined) with pudding at vic street. And because I was relaxed, we slothed on the chair for like 4 hours while we ate and chatted w/o a care in the world.

Simply delightful. (esp. the part on free parking at night =p)

Backdated post and recent long weekend outings!

I found this picture in my hp while clearing up the phone memory. And this, is the Tiramisu which I painstakingly make (ok some of the castle peeps contributed by beatings the eggs for me so I can have my lunch) during the mid-autumn festival celebration at lab. park
















Last friday was Welcome night and the entire Zouk was booked from 7pm to 10pm (inclusive of free flow of house pour). The picture you see here is the obscene amount of whisky dry and tequlia shots we ordered....

I didn't really drink much and was pretty sober enough to tally what i had that night (in chronological order)

1. 1 Whisky Coke
2. 1 Volka Lime
3. 1 Orange juice
4. 1 Beer
5. 2 tequila shots, consecutively
6. 1 volka neat
7. 1 tequila shot
8. 3 whisky dry

Sunday was spent with some of my NUS friends at settlers cafe near china town, we had a couple of interesting games including this very novel way of playing Jenga..heh heh...

Dinner at UE square the very same day at Genki sushi with colleagues! LF, AHP and the japanese mafia girl was there....hahahah....gawd...she is going to kill me if she found out I wrote this about her.....

Expectations and real world screwups

You set a goal. You put your heart and soul into it.

Yet. At the end of the day. Things don't turn out the way you expect.

No one sees the effort. Nor the pain.

What do you then do?

What Kind of intelligence do I have?

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others. Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel. You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations. A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict. You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

Sweet Peanut Butter!

Ho ho....wendy bought this for me when she was in Aizu! And because of this, I bought bread so that I can have peanut butter sandwich (just squeeze on bread and you are ready to eat!) for breakfast every day (I don't usually eat breakfast). Yum yum.

Week in summary

Mi Week in summary is like margarita, 3 parts tequlia, 2 parts Cointreau, 1 part lime juice.
3 parts hard work, 2 parts frustration and 1 part slacking. Sigh.

Peak Period Food Stocklist

Ok... over the months, the stockpile has expanded and changed...and they are as follows

:: Green Tea
:: Breakfast Tea
:: Walker's Chocolate Chips Cookie
:: Loacker Chocolate Cubes
:: Fried Seaweed
:: Kong Guan Chocolate Biscuits
:: Cuppacinno Love Letters
:: Box of apple Chocolate
:: Box of Mint Chocolate
:: Peppermint Sweets
:: Mixed Nuts Mooncake
:: Dried Canberries
:: Pringles Sour Cream & Onion Chips

mmm...why do I have so much chocolates?

Heart Stone

Broom and heart stone.

My first....

Wierd.... How did I do this?

I. AM. SO. IN. LOVE.

Need I say more?

Uh oh....

Went for my usual long distance route... Home --> Mt Faber --> Esso Station near harbour front --> Harbour front --> home

Same as before, except on the last leg of the run... my right knee decides to protest by sending jabbing pain signals to my brain...

But, considering that I never stop halfway on my route in all my long history of running, I was torn between breaking tradition and ignoring my right knee...

I broke tradition. I broke my heart with it. I have never stopped in all my years of running til i reach my destination. But now i did.

Sigh.

Of Toys & Blankets

There are 2 plates on the table, one mixed grill , one lamb chop...

"you know, it's funny, why I don't believe in marriages"

pokes the french fries on the plate and start to swirl it around the brown sauce

"How can you commit a promise that will last a life time?"

Chomps on the fries...thinks it taste great with the brown sauce

"I think there are people who doesnt even keep their promise for a day!"

Me stops chewing on the fries and said, "well, i always thought i was the wierd one, but it seems i'm not alone. Sometimes when you are with a person for too long, you grow tired of the relationship. It's just like when you are a little kid and your mama buys you toys. For the next few days, that toy is your only source of entertainment, it means the world to you. But as the days progresses, the law of depreciation applies and the toy gets devaluated. And soon enough, we look for new toys to play with"

"But there is also another side of the story. There are some things that we keep closely to our hearts and refuses to throw them away. Take for example my blanket. It's been with me for so long but I just can't bear to throw it away (or wash 'em...TsK~) and it's something that I would want to hug to sleep... "

Plays with the cucumber on the plate and attempts to balance it on a fork...it falls back on the plate with a Plop... "sigh... so we are saying that if we were to marry anyone, it has to be someone like our cherished blankets..."

"should be...."

We both tinkered with the food on the table and pondered in silence...

Photos @ UH

Ok...these are 2 of the photos that I took at University Hall today with that princess( minus the broom) while she was figuring out her SLR (no, not the Mercedes 5.5l v8 one but the camera from Nikon) And no, these shots are from my Digital Cam, not her SLR.