It has been a while...

I nearly forgotten that this blog existed, or was it that I rather not be reminded of it?

I don't know. These days I've bottled so much emotions in me that they become one big constipated mess. I'm not even sure what's what anymore. It's like rojak, you have pieces of radish, pineapple, cucumber and you-tiao all combined in one gigantic bowl topped with peanut sauce (or is it black sauce?).

I think I'm feeling disappointed. Heck, I am disappointed with so many things happening in life that I can't think and feel anymore. I'm kinda fumbling over everything that life threw at me and even now, as I write this, there's this thought in me to stop writing and just discard this blog. Why? Cause it doesn't matter. No matter how much you write, nothing will change. Change doesn't come from a URL on the Internet. It must come from something more concrete, like talking to a human being.

But as time creep by, I can't help but notice that there are lesser and lesser human beings around, so much so that I'm kind of crying inside and trying to seek solitude in the wonders of facebook and MSN.

Yeah right, it simply doesn't work.

I'm darn sure that I'm not the only one keeping awake at night waiting for people to talk to them, to seek that elusive connection with friends that social site promised but never really quite deliver... Our society has degraded to the point where interactions is conducted through mouse clicks of random likes and dislikes. What happened to presence? What happened to emotions? What happened to sincerity? And what the !@^%$#$ happened to the times where relation building is not adding a friend to your friggin facebook account?

Do not get me wrong, I think facebook brings convenience to our life of social interaction but it shouldn't be the only way to catch up with friends. It's like Avatar, except that you don't get to deal with a Navi' but more like a cold, dark LCD monitor. Try hugging it for warmth.

Sometimes, sometimes I missed the good ole days, the days where everyone is still everyone and not someone's and obligation is only found in a dictionary.

These days...I do not want to think about these days...

"And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree,
there will be an answer, let it be.

For though they may be parted there is still a chance that they will see,
there will be an answer. let it be..." - Let it be, The Beatles